"He puts a smile on my face. He's my God." =) It is impossible to put into words the experience of being daily in God's presence. The reverberating lil' jumps of joy in yr heart that persists through the mundanity, sorrow, anger, happiness, fear, dread...through all situations. In this life there will be many ups and downs...yet no matter how painful a situation in future may be...i know there'd never be a moment that i will be completely helpless or alone, cos the Lover of my Soul is always there by my side. Even when all that's left is my soul and His, that is enough.

David often struggles with persecution in his poems to God...he laments how ppl mock his belief in God, and pleads for his Father in heaven to justify him. Cos in this world, believing in something that cannot be proven by science, or reap any immediate tangible benefit, in many people's opinions, it is akin to being of unsound mind. Because it goes against the logics that rule this world, it goes against the "me" mentality-"What's in it for me?". It goes against the rationality mentality-"Prove it to me and i'd believe you." It is something that borders on the edge of incomprehensibility.

It reminded me of movies again, esp horror/thriller films. You know, when only the main character(s) know the truth? Eg.there's a ghost in the apartment above, my teddy bears come alive at night, the house is a monster. And everytime they try to explain it to someone else everything will go back to normal and ppl will think they're insane, or dismiss them as being too stressed/not enough sleep. And we as audience go, "OHH CMON!!! JUST BELIEVE HIM ALR!!" as we grip our chairs and bite our nails in kanchiongness. Only towards the end, when the other characters really see for themselves, do they believe. However, that is usually when disaster has already struck and lives have already been taken.

Then there's the other kind, psychological films perhaps, where the main character knows something, eg.aliens are planning an attack, that guy is a murderer, yet what he believes so strongly in is untrue, because these are really just delusions of his/her own mind. Usually, the fact that the main character is psychologically unwell/all the happenings in the movie are imagined, is again only revealed towards the end.

What would you rather believe in? It doesn't matter how many ppl are on which side, it doesn't mean that the more popular choice is the one which is real. I guess, when i thought of all these i was reassured that because my faith is like the former type, based on something real, eventually the truth will show. Maybe now ppl may mock. Maybe now they will laugh. But when the time comes, God will come through and then, everyone will understand. One day.