Rediscovering Eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
Tidings
Sunday, 28 September 2008
How Great is our God
The splendor of a King,
Clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice,
All the earth rejoice
He wraps himself in light,
And darkness tries to hide
And trembles at his voice,
And trembles at his voice
How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, How great
Is our God
Age to age he stands
And time is in His Hands
Beginning and the End,
Beginning and the End
The Godhead, Three in one
Father, Spirit, Son
The Lion and the Lamb,
The Lion and the Lamb
How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God,and all will see
How great, How great
Is our God
Name above all names
You are Worthy of all praise
and My heart will sing how great
Is our God
How great is our God, Sing with me
How great is our God,and all will see
How great, How great
Is our God
Been a crazy madness week, emotionally, physically, mentally. Today found me an emotional wreck even before the worship songs began. Felt like collapsing in a corner, conceding defeat. But this song reminded me of the reason why i sing, the reason why there is joy in my heart despite it all. Reminded me how GIGANTIC my God is, huger than all the possible evils on this earth. He will protect, He will save, He will heal. I know.I love You, Dear.
Kaelyn
Tuesday, 23 September 2008
Crazy
I'd be flying off to Bkk tmr evening, back on Sat midnight, last min thing. So don't be alarmed if you can't find me. Thanks. Sorry for all the inconveniences caused.
Kaelyn
Saturday, 20 September 2008
You
He whispers in my ear
and i feel so down
Reminds me of my fears
that i thought i'd fled
But i don't wanna give in
And i don't wanna give up
I don't wanna let him win
So i run to You
You
You're my Darling
You
You're my Buddy
You
You're my Daddy God
You
You're the reason that
There's Light in the dark
There's noone like you
(There's noone like you)
You
"The LORD will command His lovingkindness in the daytime; And His song will be with me in the night, A prayer to the God of my life."-Psalm 42:8
Kaelyn
Thursday, 18 September 2008
What goes up must come down
I was walking past the bball court when i saw two young boys being surrounded by two gangsterish looking guys, and i saw one of them offering the kids a cig! The Christian/social worker in me couldn't take it. I knew i had to do something, but i didn't know how. A few metres away i saw a group of boys in sch uniform-they looked upper sec. I approached them, and told them my worry-that they were 'trying to do something funny' to the kids, and asked them to protect them if possible. To my surprise, they looked as if they understood, and was concerned likewise. On retrospect, they could:
1. Think i'm mad
(they'd laugh at me after i leave)2. Actually be part of the gang
(they'd STILL laugh at me after i leave)3. Really do something
I choose to believe 3 because well, the glass is half full. God protect them.
Today, God made me run a lot. It was ridiculous, first i'd miss my bus stop. Then i'd do silly thing like stay in e shop to do my work and end up having to run to catch my last train. Then when i'm going down, the escalator going down will be spoilt. When i'm going up, the escalator going up will be spoilt. Hahaha. Somehow i actually enjoyed all the exercise though i was perspiring like mad. I know God is training me for my 'marathon' on Monday. How creative can He be.
On my bus home today, i had my nose stuck in my latest literature (Gwen u know what). So the girl was almost being attacked by four guys just cos she lost her way and all. And there were vampires and all (i love!!) I glanced up just in time to realise that it was my stop next, and i quickly pressed the bell. I took a quick look behind and realised i was the only passenger left-and it was past midnight. I had a fleeting thought that the bus driver might suddenly trap me in the bus, or drive me somewhere ulu, or something. I couldn't wait to get off the bus.
Then suddenly the bus driver called me. "Xiao mei mei!" (I wonder how old i'd have to be before ppl stop calling me that) I jumped. Took off my earphones and turned towards him. "You want to eat mango?" I felt more relieved by then-it was a harmless question. But then again, he could be mentally unsound, or a mango ghost, or something. Anyways, guess what? He happened to have 2 mangos that he didn't want-apparently the fruit vendors always give them the leftovers at the end of the day and he was sick of them. I accepted them happily-it made me smile all the way back home. Thank You God, for the juicy yummy mangoes. =)
Kaelyn
Tuesday, 9 September 2008
Blood Matters
Anna and i went to donate blood today, but we were both rejected. I was rejected cos i had 'dramatically low iron', while Anna was at risk of malaria cos she'd been to Cambodia in the past 3 years. =/
The doctor asked me to 'eat a lot of good food', esp red meat, and gave me some 40 iron pills, warning me to go and see a GP if i feel giddy.
Some funny responses when i told my friends bout my low iron:
1. WeiTao reached into his bag and offered me a banana.
2. Monica: What, she asked u to eat more?! Does she know how much u eat?
Another not funny response from Isaac but switched on the light bulb in my head.
"Do you often get blackouts?"
I suddenly remembered the near-faintings i had about a month ago. Noww i know why.
I think God heard the doctor's comments from above, because when i reached home, there was an entire roasted duck waiting for me. I happily tucked in, tearing at it like a savage Flintstone-i was mandated to eat all i want now. HAHAHA.
P.S. It feels but like a tiny antbite, but can save a life. Don't hesitate, do it! =)
Kaelyn
The Crab
Last week, my neighbour caught many sea creatures. They gave us two big fish and one crab. Mummy said she would cook the crab for me. I was very happy, and looking forward to eating the delicious crab.
However, Mummy realised that the crab was alive. I was not so eager to eat it anymore. I told Mummy that perhaps we could keep it as a pet instead. Mummy said i was crazy and proceeded to chop up the live crab who was squirming with pain. I felt like i could feel the crab's pain. It was intense, and sudden. The crab struggled for a few seconds and then stopped moving. I could not take it.
I ran to my sister at her bedside and cried to her. My sister was shocked that i was crying. She thought Mummy had scolded me. After she found out what had happened, she tried to comfort me. She told me that everything was alive, the trees, carrots and all. She also told me that God had given us dominion over the animals in the world. But i couldn't stop crying. I could still see the crab squirming torturously in my mind.
Eventually, i stopped crying. By then, the crab was cooked. We went to the kitchen together to see the crab, and Mummy, Daddy and my sister all laughed at me. My sister told my parents jokingly that it's even better that i did not want to eat the crab anymore, cos then she could have the whole crab.
But she was not a selfish sister. She refused to eat until she managed to persuade me to eat it with her. She told me about how she was in Australia and they brought a lamb out of the flock and killed it in front of her. All the lambs in the flock gathered at the side of the fence to watch this innocent lamb, crying-they knew it was about to be slaughtered. The lamb also cried the whole time, until all the life had flowed out of it. That night, they had the lamb for dinner. My sister did not want to eat the lamb at first either, but in the end she realised that she had to learn to adapt, and she ate it afterall.
After she'd told me that story, i decided to put aside my fears and eat the crab i'd cried for. It was delicious.
Kaelyn
Wednesday, 3 September 2008
The lil' delights in life
Heehee Nuan you'd love this. Spent quite a long time arranging all the new arrivals that day. I always feel like a little child, bubbling with excitement and anticipation whenever the new collection of plush toys arrive. Haha. At least i've stopped bringing them home.
I made Steffi draw this today. Okay it's kinda ruined cos i scribbled something there and asked her to blanco it. Haha but she's really rather talented at drawing. She will be an artist one day. =)
Mimi! I've kinda gotten over my fascination with her by now actually. In the beginning i would carry her on my lap all the time, and bring her food. Now she'd try to jump on my lap but i'd just pat her absent-mindedly. Sorry Mimi! Will give u a hug and bring u food next week k.
I got a Teacher's Day present from Steff! Haha. I think it's the first Teacher's Day present i ever got. I think my previous tuition kid said something bout wanting to get me a notebook for Teacher's Day but she forgot and i never got it. Lol. To think i always pamper them with gifts. =/
Cooked chicken porridge just now, with Spike as my ginger-chopping assistant. Was kinda freaked out when the chicken just wouldn't stop bleeding even after boiling it for like, 20 mins or so. Bloody chicken. Hahaha. Anyways, after cooking it for a longer time, it ended up tasting almost similar to Mummy's Chicken Porridge!! Success. =)
It's been raining cats and dogs everyday recently, and my brolly+jacket have become my closest companions. Somehow, i always feel so contented and blissful when i'm able to eat a nice hot meal with someone when it's pouring outside. Feel so snuggly and happy. Guess we're really blessed to have food, shelter, clothing and lovely company.
I love You God.
Kaelyn
