Rediscovering Eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
Tidings
Tuesday, 24 February 2009
An Emo Moment
Haha i think i must've looked crazy crying and laughing to myself on the bus today. Thanks C and J for being there, i know it's silly but i guess, it stems out of insecurity i'd not realised existed till today. Kept telling myself it didnt matter but i'm too used to being honest that i couldn't lie to myself.
I hate events where i've to be in the center of attention. I guess its because i fear rejection, and i don't want to assume that everyone wants to give me that attention.
I remember a conversation where we talked about why it is that the people closest to us are the ones who hurt us the most. Because we expect the most of them. Because we would do so much for them, and thus we expect the same from them. But that's not always the case. Because man will always fail. To me, it's a disappointment and an assurance all at once. I'm reminded of the same thing that i constantly encourage others with-that the world will disappoint and fail us, but God will never leave nor forsake me.
A part of me still feels like a beggar being thrown some pennies out of sympathy, but another part of me knows that that's a lie TEO is feeding me. Whatevers. Above all else, i know that...
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
-Romans 8:38-39
You're the reason i can smile, ever so brightly, no matter what card life deals me. =)
Kaelyn
