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Rediscovering Eden

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours

My Identity

Princess of God

Tidings

Tuesday, 21 July 2009

Prayer for a Friend

Lord I lift my friend to You.
I've done all that I know to do.
I lift my friend, to You.
Complicated circumstances
have clouded his view.
Lord I lift my friend up to You.

I fear that I won’t have the words
that he needs to hear.
I pray for Your wisdom , oh God.
And a heart that's sincere.
And Lord I lift my friend up
to You.

Lord I lift my friend to You.
My best friend in the
world, I know he means much
more to You.
I want so much to help him, but
this is something he has to do.
Lord I lift my friend up to You.

There's a way that seems so right to him.
But You know where that leads.
He's becoming a puppet of the world.
Too blind to see the strings.
And Lord I lift my friend up to You.

Lord I lift my friend to You.
I've done all that I know to do.
I lift my friend, to You.

I know that through it all, Lord You are in control, and You work all things out for the good of those who love You. Thank You God. =)

Kaelyn

Saturday, 11 July 2009

The Cracked Pot

Shared this story i found online during devotion today, thought i'd share with everyone. =)

A water bearer in India had two large pots, each hung on the end of a pole which he carried across his neck. One of the pots was perfectly made and never leaked. The other pot had a crack in it and by the time the water bearer reached his master's house it had leaked much of it's water and was only half full.

For a full two years this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots full of water to his master's house. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do.

After two years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream. "I am ashamed of myself, and I want to apologize to you." "Why?" asked the bearer. "What are you ashamed of?" "I have been able, for these past two years, to deliver only half my load because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your master's house. Because of my flaws, you have to do all of this work, and you don't get full value from your efforts," the pot said.

The water bearer felt sorry for the old cracked pot, and in his compassion he said, "As we return to the master's house, I want you to notice the beautiful flowers along the path."

Indeed, as they went up the hill, the old cracked pot took notice of the sun warming the beautiful wild flowers on the side of the path, and this cheered it some. But at the end of the trail, it still felt bad because it had leaked out half its load, and so again the pot apologized to the bearer for its failure.

The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of your path, but not on the other pot's side? That's because I have always known about your flaw, and I took advantage of it. I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back from the stream, you've watered them. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate my master's table. Without you being just the way you are, he would not have this beauty to grace his house."

Each of us has our own unique flaws. We're all cracked pots. But if we will allow it, God will use our flaws to grace his table. In God's great economy, nothing goes to waste. Don't be afraid of your flaws. Acknowledge them, and you too can be the cause of beauty. Know that in our weakness we find our strength.

Kaelyn

Friday, 10 July 2009

The beginning of a new journey

I have graduated!! Haha. My heartfelt thanks to my parents and sister! For always being so supportive, even when i get super stressed during crunch time and start screaming at you.

To Seokie and Ash, thank you for all the joy and laughter during the first year of uni, cant believe we were just at O-week and now we've finished Convocation! Mann! Haha remember the stupid CNM project and the 'ghost' that kept deleting our files?! And Seok, working with AWARE, haha. So many memories that i would never forget. Ash! All the crazy Psych modules, and always getting scolded for yakking away in class. Hahaha. Rem you actually contemplated quitting halfway and going to study overseas?! But you made it eventually! Haha good job! The mugging sessions have been worth it, ohh and the satisfaction of throwing our thick thick stacks of notes into the bin after the finals. Rocks.

To Anna and Jiemin, Theng and LiJie, thank you for being my most cherished Social Work buddies. For making me feel like i'm home whenever i see you guys. For being there whenever i need you. For always saving a seat, helping me to buy food, print lecture notes, remind me of deadlines, study together and exchange tips. What would i do without you? Haha.

To Isaac, thank you for being my faithful secretary and information counter. Haha. I think God really sent you to my life to aid me in my weaknesses. Lol. Thank you for the constant reminders, the acts of service-buying food, printing notes, study tips, helping me with my assignments, calling me on exam day to make sure i didn't oversleep, etc. Seriously. Thank you. I think i owe 1/10 of my degree cert to you. Lol kidding. Thanks for making me laugh until my teeth are just short from dropping out, esp in times when i'm close to pullling my hair out. Though sometimes i just feel like rolling my eyes at you. Lol. It's been really fun and crazy doing projects together, catching cockroaches together (LOL!), debating with each other in class, roleplaying with accents and all. Thank God for you!

To Monica, Meizi, Candice, Dexter, it was truly a pleasure to be able to work with you guys over those 10 weeks. 10 weeks of playing silly games and sharing our lives in that office with translucent walls while everyone else rushes around like mad hatters. 10 weeks of walking down that dark alley to our staff canteen, and hovering around the bazaar for food and shopping. 10 weeks of running for the staff bus, forming a tag team so that the one at the back wouldn't miss the bus. 10 weeks of learning from each other, giving each other feedback and support when cases got us burning in righteous anger, or shivering with knocking knees. Those Twanging days would always be etched in my mind. =)

To Kian Kee, thank you for being the most gracious host whenever i step into the Land of Science. Haha thank you for being one of the bestest brothers i've ever had, woah i've known you for what, 9 years? Scary. Lol. Goes beyond words la. Think our friendship didn't begin in NUS and will not end here, either.

To NUS Prayer warriors, continue to fight on!! I believe the ground has already been softened. Continue to claim the promises of the Lord for this land which His favor is upon. I believe many miracles will happen and many lost sheep find their way back through the work you're doing in this place.

"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."
-Galatians 6:9

To all the other friends i've met in NUS over the past three years, it's been a great pleasure crossing paths with you. Maybe one day we will be colleagues! Haha for Amanda, Charmaine and Grace, will see you in one year. For those who are taking honours, or still has more year(s) to go, enjoy your undergraduate years! Join more school activities, pay more attention, make more friends. Don't be like me. Lol. Jiayou. =)

To all my friends, esp those who asked about my convocation...sorry i didn't invite you. It's not that I wouldn't have loved your presence, but really didn't wanna trouble anyone to come all the way down just to take photos, other than my family. One day, we shall all wear our graduation gowns and take photos for fun k? Hahaha. I'd bring my bear. =)

Kaelyn

Wednesday, 1 July 2009

This day that the Lord made

Today was so magical i actually decided to come online just to blog. Haha. Family meeting was awesome. The worship and sermon had me in tears half the time, God's presence was so strong. As i was reflecting upon my life, i couldnt help but feel an overwhelming gratitude towards the Saviour of my life. Indeed He has been with me through it all, through every single season. And each step of the journey, He has blessed me abundantly, through the good and bad times. And now this job...is such an incredible blessing, i can hardly believe it.

Word was on Miracles today, how faith is the kerosene that spurs on miracles. How we have to take that step of faith to walk when Jesus tells us to. How Jesus sees each and every one of our needs for miracles in our lives, even in a congregation full of people, even when we are just a tiny insignificant speck in the crowd. How we can praise God even in the darkness, because He is in control.

We had sports day today, where we went to play badminton. Then i had dinner with val, after which i decided to walk from Yew Tee to CCK. It was such an enjoyable walk..I didn't know the direction, but just followed the train track...sometimes i'd trail away and find my way back, sometimes i'd cut through the park and walk on the wobbly bridge, sometimes i'd walk on the flyover...

And it was just one of those moments where i couldn't help but start grinning away to myself and take in a deep, contented breath. As i was walking by the flyover, the sight of the cars, trees and sky illuminated in the evening glow captivated me so much that i stopped just to breathe it all in. And i thought, "If earth is so beautiful, what must heaven look like?"

Life is so beautiful when Jesus is in it. Recent weeks has drawn me closer to Him somehow...and everyday i would spend some time just thinking of Him, and delighting in His presence. Learning to play the guitar also helped, i guess. Haha. Music is so beautiful, it only makes sense that it was created to worship Him.

I think the Shack really helped me to know Him better. Knowing that God chuckles, that He can be silly and high like me, helps me relate to Him better. Makes me feel like giving Him one big hug, really. And recent events where He's so tactfully and wisely pointed out to me my flaws, patiently helping me to grow...where can i find a better friend, who knows me inside out and yet still loves me wholeheartedly, without restraint?

Only you.

This song has been playing in my head ever since we sang it during one morning's devotion...

Knowing You
(Graham Kendrick)

All I once held dear, built my life upon,
all this world reveres and wars to own,
all I once thought gain I have counted loss,
spent and worthless now compared to this.

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You.
There is no greater thing.
You're my all, You're the best, You're my joy,
my righteousness; and I love You, Lord.

Now my heart's desire is to know You more,
to be found in You and known as Yours,
to possess by faith what I could not earn,
all surpassing gift of righteousness.

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You.
There is no greater thing.
You're my all, You're the best, You're my joy,
my righteousness; and I love You, Lord.

Oh, to know the pow'r of Your risen life,
and to know You in Your suffering,
to become like You in Your death,
My Lord, so with You to live and never die.

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You.
There is no greater thing.
You're my all, You're the best, You're my joy,
my righteousness; and I love You, Lord.

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You.
There is no greater thing.
You're my all, You're the best, You're my joy, my righteousness;
You're my all, You're the best, You're my joy, my righteousness;
You're my all, You're the best, You're my joy, my righteousness;
and I love You, Lord.

Kaelyn

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